Monthly Archives: February 2012

So Tired

I have been so tired lately. Yesterday at my morning job I felt like I was trying to run a marathon after getting hit by an elephant tranquilizer. As soon as I got home I took a nap……and it felt great! If you know me, you know that I next to never take naps. I usually can’t fall asleep and I worry that I won’t be able to fall asleep at night. It took a while to fall asleep but I am so glad I stayed the course. I felt like a new person when I woke up and rejuvinated before having to go to my night job.

I was offered a full time position at my primary job as a merchandiser which I will be taking for now. I have held this position before and have continued merchandising since I stepped out of that position, but this means that I am a primary merchandiser and I will be getting more hours. My manager knows that it will be temporary until I start taking classes again next semester but I am so thankful to be able to make some extra cash. However, this also means that I needed to cut some of my hours from my job at the gym. I can’t be working 60 hours per week between the two jobs so I cut back to ten hours per week at the front desk.

As much as I enjoy saying hello to all of the people coming in to the gym, it gets a little boring after a while and working three nights until 11pm during the week there when I need to be up for work the next morning around 4am means I’m getting about 4 hours of sleep those nights. I hope that cutting back on my hours helps me to get some more sleep and not walk around like a zombie on most days. Also, I hope that my extra sleep will give me a little more motivation for my training. I haven’t been as crazy in the gym lately, but I have increased in some of my lifts despite being so tired so that is a plus πŸ™‚ .

I asked my boyfriend to give me some shoulder exercises to add to my routine since they are something I am really trying to focus on and he told me to do seated military presses in the smith machine. I did them at the beginning of my shoulder workout on Wednesday and my shoulders were so SORE!! I was very pleased πŸ™‚ .

Today I did legs and did weighted glute raises for the first time and LOVED them! I will start doing these on my leg days regularly. As I got done with my first set an older gentleman came over to ask me if they worked your lower abs. I told him he should do hanging leg raises for lower abs and saw him doing them a little later.

My studly boyfriend and I have staycation plans this weekend and I couldn’t be more excited! We are going to be staying in a local hotel to kind of get away. We may not be able to afford a real vacation right now in the sun and sand but that doesn’t mean we can’t get away from home for a little bit.

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Baby Envy

Ahhh, babies….

Today I went to see my cousin’s new baby girl. Her name is Emma Lou and she is beautiful ❀

She fell asleep while I finished giving her the rest of her bottle. Her tiny fingers and fingernails are so cute and she has the most beautiful blue eyes. My cousin and I are the same age (30) and this is her fourth child. While I do not feel like I am in the right place in my life to have a baby, I must say that I have some serious baby envy going on. The whole time I was holding her, my mom kept telling my aunts that I was a natural and my aunt asked me when I was going to give my mom a grandbaby. I reminded everyone that my older sister is engaged so they should be asking her and not meΒ  who is just trying to get by while going to school.

A couple of years ago I couldn’t stop thinking about how badly I wanted a baby. I was single at the time and not in a good place to be having a baby then either, but I think being a mom would be so rewarding. Holding precious Emma today is making me think about it again and the fact that I am 30 years old. I don’t want to have kids too far in my future because I don’t want to be too old when they are in their 20’s. If I am blessed with any children, I hope they happen in the next five years. However as we all know, life doesn’t always go as planned.

Something I have been wanting for years though, is a dog!! This also cannot happen now. I want to be living in a house before I get a dog so it is able to roam in a yard.

Incidentally, one of my cousin’s dogs (she has three) had puppies the day she came home from the hospital. I want one so bad!! They are so cute!! Unfortunately I did not take a picture (how did I miss that opportunity!?). The mom is a husky with bright blue eyes and she is gorgeous, and the dad is a mix that for some reason I can’t remember. But he was there today while I was visiting and he was a very handsome dog. If only I could have smuggled a pup out under my coat…..