For the past couple of weeks I have been really struggling with my diet. I want sugar and fat and I’m quickly losing my self control……ok let’s be honest, my self control has completely disappeared. I have also lost motivation to get into the gym 😦 It’s frustrating for me.
I know that I am the only one that makes the decision for what goes into my mouth and it is completely my own fault for eating what I have been eating…..and drinking. Yes, I’ve also been drinking. Not a lot, but more than normal considering I don’t usually drink at all.
Very strange, but by the end of the week I want to drink. I don’t know exactly what it is but I can guess it is due to a combination of things…… 1) not getting enough sleep; I am still working until 11 pm twice a week at the gym and then 6 am most mornings at my full time job which means very little sleep is being had. 2) I am really hating my living situation as of late and it stresses me out just knowing that my moms’ husband is ALWAYS home. We got into it a few weeks ago and I have been extra stressed about living here lately. 3) Lack of money to move and also pay off my credit card from when I was living on my own previously while in school full time and only able to work part time so I charged EVERYTHING…..very bad idea. 4) Missing my boyfriend a LOT! Because our schedules are so busy, we aren’t able to see each other as often as I would like. I find myself missing him quite a bit.
I do have some good things happening as well. I was accepted into the U of M’s nutrition program and I’ll be starting in the fall!!!!! I am so stoked that it is FINALLY happening!!
My best friend that lives in Florida is graduating May 4th and as a graduation gift, she asked her sister to fly me down to visit!! I will be there from May 1-9 and am really looking forward to seeing her!! I really miss her!! Her sister will also be coming in from Guam for her graduation, so I get to hang with both of them!!
She is student teaching 12th grade English right now at a high school in Florida and I couldn’t be more proud of her. She is also getting an award from the College of Education! So exciting!!
Anyway, I MUST get back on the wagon and tighten up my diet or else my pants will get tighter……I split my pants at work a few weeks ago. It was not a proud moment, but I did have to laugh because that ish is funny.